Not voting after all. Read so much about both candidates I am officially confused, paranoid, & no longer give a shit. Sue me.

I worry about what these votes will mean to my children. I worry about what they will mean to my uterus.

And then I stop worrying. In the end, what is being paid for to occur will occur. If the US is going to go all Mad Max, MY ass w/ absolutely no interest in politics whatsoever isn't going to make a dent.

Also, I have children to raise & an education to get, dammit.

-sigh-

Fuck.

I started reading 'The Shining' for about the elebenty-gazillionth time. It's funny how even horror novels act as a literary blanket for the bleak & chilly landscape of my mind.

I've kind of lost any concern over my current relationship. I just can't bring myself to care.

Last night I completed a Care One Credit report. Even w/ my student loan paid off I still owe over $8K. Zowie. If I made payments of $357 per month I'd be debt free in 2 years, assuming that I accrued no MORE debt.

Tooty-Fuckin'-Fruity.

I'm still unemployed, btw.